RoJaK-FeELiNg~
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Haiz.. The waiting game has ended.. My feelings now is like rojak .. It was kinda drama & choatic after my lunch today.. After lunch , went to check the forum .. Someone commented tat results will be out at 2pm !! My heart almost jumped out! To make sure, i went to student portal to check .. Yep, there was a notice tat results will be released at 2pm.. I almost wanted to faint.. Went smsing SY, Chewy, Janani ,Jamie ,Jieying and Yee jia who informed Gallen.. Called Gerald.. Then Janani called me.. E-mailed Stacy , told Susan on msn.. It was drama.. My heart kept pounding when the page was being uploaded.. And my heart sank.. :( I failed hrm & audit by 3 & 4 marks resepectively.. Haiz.. It really happened as just as i feared.. Haiz...Overall , i got a pass degree.. Hmm.. Felt relived as the waiting game has ended and no need to worry etc.. Felt disappointed as well.. I put in a lot of effort on hrm and yet... It's just 3 marks !!! Damn It !!! Oh my goodness ! It is almost there But yet not there yet.. Haiz.. On the other hand , i'm happy with my MSM & ESAP marks esp MSM .. It's my highest mark in my 3 years..Haiz.. Dunno.. Friends told me tat it's good enough to get a pass degree..But i'm just bu gan xin lo..A few more marks to the passing mark ! Just thinking wat happened.. Am i so useless ? Did i not make more effort ? Maybe i did not choose the rite questions to tackle? Haiz..I seriously dunno .. Though my mom says it's ok, i feel bad & gulity.. Haiz.. I could have done better .. But i did not..Haiz.. i really dunno .. The day ended with a heavy rain which is so suit my mood :( I dunno .. Haiz.. Hope i feel better tmr.. Tmr will be a better day..Ha..I dunno.. Hoping for bits of rainbow after the rain..Now , it seems tat i'm standing at the crossroad.. I dunno which direction to go.. haiz..
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